I’m torn about the future of my relationship with M. Not because of the actual relationship, that seems pretty sweet. Nope, it’s a question of national lines.

The further this nation sinks into a rhetoric cesspool, the more I yearn to live abroad. Not so much that I believe that there is a governmental utopia waiting with open arms to embrace this weary little trooper. Nope. I’m not that naive. I just want to live in a soveriegn nation that isn’t so fucked up that shit is truth and truth is shit.

On the other hand, M. is proud to be an American (and rightly so, given he fought and worked for it for many years). So, he will stay here, as I, like Diogenes, carry a lamp not to find an honest man, but a possibly not completely, foul, dishonest government, and become a citizen of the world.

My bags are almost packed after seeing in rapid succession, Ann Coulter arguing with Arianna Huffington on what should only be called Fucking Hannity and Colmes, and the douche-y and occasionally (deceptively, mind you) not 100-percent-wrong Joe Scarborough arguing with a student at U. of Washington. The thing about the Scarborough fight was the bliss in which words were getting put into some peacenik kid’s mouth, in which gradually seemed pro-Hitler and anti-all Marines, everywhere.

(The saddest part was the kid was actually pretty well-spoken. His point was that he was not against Pappy Boyington. He was against the cynical manipulation in the modern world, where a war memorial has become an issue through it’s use to boost a pro-military stance and bolster an unpopular (rightly so) war. There was nothing slacker, dopey, protest-y about the dude. I believe he has read a few history books.)

So, in ripping the kid, Joe moves on to some fat fuck alumni, and they toss around and refute anti-World War II rhetoric no one ever actually said and jerk each other off to Pappy Boyington’s heroism. In the fucked up world we now live in this bullshit naturally segued into SHOCKING, U. of Washington’s pro-Commie memorial. Not only are the kids over there against great WWII heroes, making them essentially pro-Hitler and Holocaust, they are Communist-loving bastards to boot.

Then they show the so-called memorial to communists. It’s a goddamn tribute to the Abraham Lincoln Brigade in the Spanish Civil War. Fucking A. Red-baiting in 2006?

I thought our national conscience voted and decided fighting facists in Spain was just swell.

The scary truth of all of this shit is M. is the one putting these images onto our TV. He’s driving me away. He clearly has a larger (crueler) motive. Why couldn’t he just fuck with my self-esteem like your average cruel boyfriend?