{"id":278,"date":"2004-06-06T05:19:38","date_gmt":"2004-06-06T12:19:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wordpress\/?p=278"},"modified":"2004-06-06T05:19:38","modified_gmt":"2004-06-06T12:19:38","slug":"maybe-im-mentally-ill","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/maybe-im-mentally-ill\/","title":{"rendered":"Maybe I&#039;m mentally ill"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Another morning and I&#8217;m up at dawn, because I never went to bed.  Why?  Because I was watching a <a href=\"http:\/\/www.imdb.com\/title\/tt0102469\/\">stupid movie.<\/a>  That, and screwing around with web design.  Why?  How the fuck should I know.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve barely made any effort all weekend to make any human contact.  I was supposed to go to a party.  I got in my car and drove to the neighborhood, but never parked.  Sometimes, I just get so convinced that I have no ability to socialize.  So, of course, I act that out and don&#8217;t socialize.  I could easily be a hermit, I think.  In fact, one reason I don&#8217;t spend enough time writing something &#8220;serious&#8221; is that I think I could easily step into an intellectually masturbatory haze in which I retreat from all human contact.  Which, would be pretty fucked up.  I would have to face that I don&#8217;t enjoy my own company THAT much.<\/p>\n<p>I mean masturbation is fun and all, even the virtual, intellectual kind, but every now and again a girl&#8217;s gotta get the real deal.  You know, intercourse, social and otherwise.<\/p>\n<p>Tomorrow, I shall strive to not be a freakish hermit and seak some kind of company.<\/p>\n<p>(The worst part, because of course this is like my junior high journal right here, is that I can&#8217;t be with the boy I like.  I need physical contact to remind myself that there&#8217;s an outside world.)<\/p>\n<div id=\"wp_fb_like_button\" style=\"margin:5px 0;float:none;height:100px;\"><script src=\"http:\/\/connect.facebook.net\/en_US\/all.js#xfbml=1\"><\/script><fb:like href=\"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/maybe-im-mentally-ill\/\" send=\"true\" layout=\"standard\" width=\"450\" show_faces=\"true\" font=\"arial\" action=\"like\" colorscheme=\"light\"><\/fb:like><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Another morning and I&#8217;m up at dawn, because I never went to bed. Why? Because I was watching a stupid movie. That, and screwing around with web design. Why? How the fuck should I know. I&#8217;ve barely made any effort all weekend to make any human contact. I was supposed to go to a party. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[12,14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-278","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-stuff","category-working-in-hell"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8wYr-4u","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/278","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=278"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/278\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=278"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=278"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dee-rob.com\/wp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=278"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}